Birthday reflections

The eve of my 31st birthday seems a good time to take stock of where I am. While not wanting to compartmentalise too much (an ongoing challenge for me) I feel like this is the right moment to take an honest look at myself and assess the various areas of my life. So, on a scale of 1 to 10, I think it's fair to give myself the following scores: Motherhood: 9/10 plus 1 point for second pregnancy! = 10/10 The most important score to have got right this year, I feel I have adjusted to motherhood admirably and am doing a really good job in this area. I am also pregnant again, and coping well - so perhaps I can give myself an extra point for that! My little boy has been the greatest joy and blessing of my life, and I know that having my daughter later this year will create the same explosion of love for me. Relationship with R: 8/10 After a rocky few months adjusting to all that comes with being new parents, I think we have pulled through with flying colours and are connecting well. I still have work to do around honesty and listening. Sexually we are ok - could be better, but we're both trying. Family: 9/10 No major problems here, except perhaps around openness of communication from my sister around her new boyfriend. Overall things are good with my parents, and giving them a grandchild this year has been the biggest gift I could ever have given them. Relationships with my family-in-law have also strengthened and deepened this year. I've also become aware of how much healing a new child can do in a family. Career: 5/10 Work and career growth have taken a backseat and my inability to secure an overdraft on the back of mediocre business performance this year has been a bit of a downer. I have also not serviced my clients well and have put some relationships in jeopardy, which I feel bad about. However, I have made amends where possible and have good new business prospects lined up for the rest of 2013, so am feeling more positive about growing my client base and securing my cashflow for the rest of the financial year, maternity leave notwithstanding. Further to my post of 1 May, I need to ensure I do not over-commit myself and paralyse my productivity through fear (and baby brain!) from October into January. Finances: 4/10 While as a family we are thriving due to R's increased earning power (even our house move and rental has gone smoothly in recent weeks), I am not performing well in this area personally. Linked to my career, my cashflow has been abysmal for the last several months, and I have accumulated more debt than I am comfortable with. The only redeeming factor here is my good work in the last two weeks around consciously engaging with abundance, and doing my best to attune once again to this flow by giving away what I can, getting clear on what I want from the universe and thinking about gratitude. My sense is that I have created some limiting beliefs* which I need to rewire, but I am conscious of this and I hope that moving into a'4' year cycle (which I enter tomorrow) will be helpful as I align myself with financial flow again. Learning: 5/10 Yet another area that has not been a priority this year since having my baby. My UNISA studies have fallen off the radar and I am keen to re-start these in January next year. I have also identified a course in metaphysics which I would like to explore. I am starting to read again, and have been enjoying this in recent weeks. However, my (non-academic)learning and increased levels of self-awareness and self-knowledge since becoming a mother allow me to add a few points here. Friends: 9/10 Friendships remain strong and clear across the board, particularly in my core circle. Some of my more extended circles have become distant and I would like to re-connect with these people before baby 2 arrives. I would also like to assist R in re-establishing some of his old friendships, which have drifted away. Perhaps entertaining more at home when we move into a bigger place next month is the way to achieve this. Health and fitness: 6/10 Solid, although not stellar. As I progress into my 30s I need to watch my intake of alcohol, minerals and vitamins, and especially water. I remain moderately active (running after a 1 year old helps to keep up my daily levels of informal movement) and try to get to the gym once or twice every 10 days. I have felt well this year overall, and bounced back really quickly from my first pregnancy in terms of weight and shape. I was at my ideal weight (58kg) even during the first few months of my second pregnancy and while I'm realistic that I may not have exactly the same experience the second time around, I am also not worried about recovering my figure after baby 2. So, a score of 56/80 or 70%. A resounding B grade for 2012-2013. I intend to achieve an A score (upwards of 80 per cent) this time next year! I have not allocated a mark to my spiritual growth and exploration of the last 12 months. But I do think this has seen an uptick in the last month as I have done some more thinking about what I attract into my life, and how. I have recently created my own vision board and will be happy to see some of these images becoming my reality as the next year unfolds. Here's to a new year of living magically. HoneyChild *A note on this - I received more clarity on what the blockage is the next day, my birthday. It is that I believe I have to work hard to have enough or a lot of money. I need to separate the two. I work hard for job satisfaction and a feeling of achievement and pride. This has nothing to do with how much money I have. Money comes easily and frequently, and does not have to be linked to how much or how little I work!